Freedom

Freedom is a luxury, an art mastered

It comes with seasoning

Years of suffering and indifference

I wear it like an ornament

It comes to me easy as breathing

But, to bond and be bound

Baby, it stifles me and holds me

It tames me, breaks my spirit

Stints my view through the glass I see

Paints colours and makes it hazy

Do you see, I don't belong here?

I lose you or not, it's still nothing

I'm free and wild as air

I can't be anchored

By a beast or an angel.

This security of having you

Doesn't wake me with false alarms

I'm steeled inside out

There is something in me

That you can't get to.

It's a reverie, it's a nightmare

Or a wishful thinking, a miraged happiness

Or someone's reality

Having that someone

To live and die for

Tangled in strings and knots

To desire and to be desired

But, oh baby, I can't, I know

I can't live for you

I'm not made of their blood

I can't and won't die for you.

We met as strangers

Strangers we still are

It's a thumb rule of relationships

That we meet and depart as strangers

Nothing changes the beginning

Or the ending

If you sit back and be an onlooker

Only the in-between is a make believe.

I can be a murderer or a victim

I can kill you and can't save you at once

There is no sense at all, you see?

I can't and won't take the middle path

Reveal what you are now or only time will tell

You'll have all of me or nothing

I will have all of you or nothing

Or too soon there will be a day

When there are no changes at all.  

Being Human

Leaving is never hard

Goodbyes don't hurt

As much as the life after.

You can't convince that it's over

To the others or yourself

Or know that it is for real.

A mirage that traps you in

Quicksand consumes you

You can't feel your legs

You fall and crawl

It kills you almost and keeps you alive,

You wish it is over in a second

But it lasts, for hours and days.

Days become nights

Nights become days

You can't tell one from the other

But, one day it's gotta be over.

That one day you feel nothing

Nothing at all, even after trying

It's not so human, but you find yourself

Hanging around like you're one.

Waiting to damn your beloved.

Mind Game

His sensual touch on her lips

An intoxicating one, that

Arrested her breath, slurred her words

No drug could come close.

It was love and lust.

What is one without the other?

Like flesh and blood, one derives

Drive from the other.

His sinews tightened, breathing hard

She shut her eyes to the nights she lied to herself

She broke, she cried and rehabilitated

Inside walls of make believe.

But not tonight.

All her youthful years that passed

The beauty life robbed her of

Piecemeal. Inch by inch. Surely.

How she was wasted. Ruthlessly.

Waiting and disarmed.

But not tonight.

She wished she had never met him

And lived to know

That he touched her like no man had

And no man could ever again.